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February 12, 2005
12 Years Old
Two days ago, on the 8th, Jennifer and I called Irene Newmark, the medical intuitive in San Francisco that has had me on a 60-day program of detox baths. As they’re almost finished now we decided to call her for an update. I hadn’t spoken to her the previous time, but I have nonetheless trusted her implicitly. The call let me know why. I don’t know exactly how she works, but she seems to work off a checklist of questions about all the parts of the body and receives responses, usually on a scale of one to ten. Previously, “brain vitality” was one; it is now ten. A very good start. She had also found pesticides, formaldehyde, and building materials in her initial scan. All these residual toxins have cleared. She then began her checklist, working her way down my body. No problems anywhere until she got to my digestive tract at which point she began rattling off a plethora of needed supplements. Jennifer and I looked at each other with mouths agape. My stomach has been very unhappy since the 26th of January, to the extent that I journalled about it repeatedly at the time. She also picked up that my zinc levels were down 50%, an apparent side effect of stopping my supplements in an effort to settle my stomach.
She then said that she was receiving a good resonance for the surgery and dendritic cell vaccine on all levels, and gave us detailed instructions for actions that friends and we can take to support me during and after it.
Jennifer then asked her a very good question: what about the tumour itself? Irene replied that she was picking up a soul-level issue stemming from childhood age 12. Again, Jennifer and I were stunned, as we had seen a local intuitive here early this year and he had told us that this all stems from “around age 13”, but he was unable to give us any further detail that I can recall.
Jennifer’s (typically excellent) notes from Irene’s response are as follows:
- Soul-level issue stemming from childhood age 12:
Issue of trust in the universe… Loss of trust in the universe… Feeling unprotected by the universe… Alone in the universe… Unimportant to universe… Immediate universe feeling unbearable… Probably to do with family dynamics at that time… Residual at level 1. - Sub-atomic level: more age 12 soul level issues around sense of self:
Feeling unworthy of life… Unconsciously unwanted… Not okay… Loss of belief in self… Residual at level .5. - Subtle nervous system, also age 12:
Self-destructive unconscious feelings at that time… Overwhelming anguish… Powerlessness… Residual at level .5. - Chakra above head, relationship to God within issues, age 12:
Unconscious dejection of one’s goodness… Divinity innocence… Loss of belief in oneself’s good and true nature… Residual at 1.5. - Unmet need for a sense of belonging at the time (age 12)… Sense of injustice and unmet need for justice, protection, security, understanding, warmth.
Irene said to ask for all of that unconscious pain and suffering of the 12-year-old to be transformed and healed, and that the tumour is an encapsulation of a wound of a 12-year-old, unexpressed pain at that time that had been hidden as deeply as possible. She also said that by having mentioned it, it all should clear with the last few detox baths within three days.
Well!
As soon as Irene began addressing the topic, my body went berserk. At the time, I was unable to consciously recall an incident or event when I was 12, but my body was shaking so badly that I was remaining in my chair only with real difficulty. I was crying silently while listening to her talking, and I knew that my body knew exactly what she was talking about even though my mind did not.
Kylie was at our house during the conversation with Irene, and so Jennifer and I were immediately able to discuss the age-12 period with her. When the local intuitive had mentioned “around age 13”, I had been unable to think of an event or period that was severely disruptive, as I thought I had arrived on the Ranch shortly before I turned 12 and the early Ranch period was a good one. However, in discussing it with Kylie we realized that I had turned 13 after arriving on the Ranch, meaning that when I was 12 she and I and our dad had left India and returned to West Australia for six months, while our mother went directly to the U.S. The six months was spent waiting to hear that the Ranch was ready to receive us, and we had a difficult period with our dad’s family who probably thought we were a bunch of freaks. I can recall very little from the period—which is probably telling in itself—but I clearly recall an event in which I and a cousin has gotten into trouble for busting up an old rusty wrecked car that was laying around somewhere. Apparently, it belonged to a local who had complained to our fathers, and I recall my uncle being very angry with his son. My dad was sitting next to him and I was certain that he understood that we hadn’t known that the wreck belonged to or was valued by anyone. He did not, and was very angry with me also. I recall being very surprised, confused and disappointed by that, and feeling that I had been treated unjustly. Kylie is sorting her photos from the period and we intend to get together to go over them to see if we can’t jog our memories further.
Posted by Peter at February 12, 2005 11:29 PM
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